What DO I DO?

 

Photo by T. Raceine Hobbs-York

 

 

Me:  Greetings My Dear Friend!  How are you? 

Me:  Just wondering!  Have you visited my blog lately?  NO!!!

Me:  Well, I wonder why you haven't been reading it.

Me:  Oh, I see!  You say there hasn't been anything posted.

Me:  I don't understand why you haven't been reading it.  I have written my blog at least 3 to 4 times a week.  But, I am getting no feedback.  It is so disappointing.  WELL!  I suppose it would help if I posted it, huh? 

Friend:  Say what?!?

Me:  Yep!  I have written something almost daily.  Got blogs piling up. 

Friend:  So, what's holding you back?  I like what you have written so far. 

Me:  I'm not sure what is holding me back.  I have some ideas though.  Some of my blogs have been on why I am holding  back.  It always helps me if I share my thoughts with someone.  But this time I don't know who to share them with, so I thought I would blog about them.  Then I worried about blogging about them.  I'm not worried about what I have shared.  I would like to share my poetry, my thoughts, as well as how my blog is going.  I decided to share what my concerns were on my blog.  I hoped I would get some feedback that would help me evolve Blog What May.  So I wrote those blogs.

Me:  THEN I thought how I hope it will be a sharing thing as well as a learning thing, kinda' like my writing group.  Some good quality critique.  This came about because I am worried my writing isn't as good as others because my education does not include a bachelors or masters degree, only two years of college which was all I could afford.  I write from the heart.  That doesn't mean I'm good, even though I think I have potential.  So I thought it would be nice to have two or three people critique my blog, either before, or after I have posted it.  I have written poetry for 30 years (my kind - I'm learning all sorts of new things about poetry, as uneducated as I am.)  I am smart, just unschooled. 

Me:  I am so excited about my blog.  About sharing my "everyday common, ordinary, every day, simple - yet awesome" poetry.  I have written a few new poems, because I didn't know if sharing my old work would be alright.  And I love a challenge.  Blogging is awesome.  Whether I have one follower, or one-hundred, or one million, it doesn't matter.  I love it.  I just realized what I think I need, here in the beginning anyway, a mentor.  But then I tell myself, everyone is so busy.  SO WHAT DO I DO?  I am doing what I did when I was worried that I wasn't ever going to go to heaven until I became perfect.  When I finally went to God with my problem, He told me I don't expect you to be perfect before you trust me.  I will perfect you.  I need you to let me teach you.  My life became much more peaceful and less worrisome at that point.

Friend:  So!  What's your problem?

Me:  I don't know who to ask.  Everyone I know is so busy with their own writing, who do I ask?  Or do I just muddle along on my own.

 

Me:  Today’s poem about AUTUMN has sat in solitude since Tuesday night; waiting in its holding mode because I want to be perfect, but know I will always want to perfect what I have.  I even took photos of beautiful Fall trees today.  Yet, every time, s soon as my blog is written and I go in to post it, I doubt what I have written.  So, what do I do?  Do you know?

Hmmmm ... wellllll... Don't think.  Don't worry.  Just post this one.  Maybe someone will have an idea.

 

Me:  Great Idea

Photo by T. Raceine Hobbs-York

 Until next time, my Friends, follow your dreams; even when you run into a mountain like I have.  Eventually, I believe it will be a molehill.